what is happening

Finally some truth arrives
Pounding as door slams echoe
I am not sure what is happening to me
It's been such a long time
It seems years although I am sure it hasn't been
And I just now am coming down
Like falling out of a chair
And looking back up realizing
It's miles away to the seat I was at
I am by no means at rock bottom
But someone mentioned depression to me
So long since I have heard that word
When anyone was referring to me
It is just not fair
Everything is right but one thing
And it is so important that I have to fight
Each word exchanged makes things worse
And we end up in separate rooms
Perhaps not even eating dinner
Finding our own paths
To diffuse the situation
And the tears are so close
How did I get here
And do I want to go back
To being immune
Or try out being human for a while